Realisation

​I stare at blank pages
my mind full,
but everything in it wrong.
not today, then

how should I write 
about green and blue,
sun-baked brown,
snow flashes on hot, dark mountains?

how should I write 
about the sky settling
into the broad stripes
of a calm sunset?

I used to love this game
putting my mind in grey words
on white paper, and
making them colourful 

when it didn't matter 
about making sense,
being original,
what others want to read

my realisation is,
I stopped writing 
because I love it, but
that should still be enough

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